Monday, October 15, 2012

Civilization is Hideously Fragile

My husband has taken to working all the hours in a given day. He hasn't been home before 10:00 p.m. in over a week. On Friday night, I mean Saturday morning, he got home at 4:00 a.m. I'm not entirely clear on what he is doing all those hours at work, and I try not to ask, because he develops this weird twitch over his left eyebrow when I do. It seems very stressful.

Unfortunately, my husband is the only motivation I have to behave like a responsible adult. Without him around I:

-cease to cook nutritional meals (the other night I had string cheese for dinner)

-fail to buy groceries that can be assembled into proper meals (the last grocery trip included KIND Bars, chevre, milk chocolate and single serve containers of hummus)

-forget to take his pants to the dry cleaners (he only owns 4 pairs of work appropriate pants, so this is a bit of a problem)

-fail to fold the laundry (instead I leave all the baskets in the living room and dress from them)

In fact, without my husband around in the evenings, I pretty much sit around, knit socks (I have plenty of socks; what I really need are sweaters), and watch old episodes of trashy TV series on Netflix. It's not that my husband demands a decent dinner, folded laundry, or other such home comforts. It's just that I'm ashamed to let my inner frat boy take over when there's someone around to witness it.

Saturday, October 6, 2012


I have Hashimoto's disease. In layman's terms, this means I don't have a thyroid. My last endocrinologist believes I developed this condition around age 13. I started medication at 18, but managing it fell by the wayside between other, more serious medical problems and multiple post-college moves.

I'm seeing a new endocrinologist who increased my dosage by 10% after reviewing my test results. I'm seemingly losing weight a bit more easily now, and I have more energy than I can ever remember. That's great. I'm no longer coming home from work and collapsing into bed. We do stuff out of the house on weekends! On the other hand, I'm struggling to fall asleep. I can't sleep more than 6 or 7 hours a night, and I am unable to fall asleep before midnight. I'm not sure if this is a good trade off.

New Socks

I finished these on Wednesday. Yarn is Felici Sport in Macaroon. I didn't start the heel soon enough, so they're a bit baggy. I have discovered I need to start the heel before the instructions say, or it's too long. I'm tempted to draw a line on my foot in Sharpie so I can remember the right spot.